accountability is key

as far as writing prompts are concerned i’ve seen the one about writing a letter to your past self about a 100 times. my past self is kind of annoyed at hearing how things will be.

today a prompt i found had me writing to someone in the future. i guess i should write about how i hope things are now(then). i of course started to write because i know exactly how i want things to be. notice i immediately thought of writing to myself and not my children. i’m not ready to admit that i won’t be here for their forever.

as i started to type a letter to myself and wrote down things complimenting the new house or success at work. a fear like none other came over me. what if those things aren’t real just yet. how far in the future do i need to send this letter for that to be the case. then i was even more critical at the fact that i’m not sure if those things will ever happen.

so i’ve decided that the letter should not be for a younger Jose who wouldn’t listen to reason anyway. lets face it, that’s what got to us to where we are now and although I know it’s where we need to be on this journey of mine it’s not. i can’t write to future Jose because of reasons already explained above. so this letter really needs to be me now.

Hey Jose,

it’s almost midnight again, you really do have to start posting to your blog a lot earlier than “almost tomorrow”. so i need you to understand that i’m in no way complaining about how things are going lately. life is better than where you were just last year. i just need you to understand that if you want things to be the same or somewhat better then you’re good. yet if your goal is to be a 10 times better then  you need to make a change. you need to make changes in how you perceive accountable.

I want you to lose some weight. I’ve been nice and getting by on just your running as you can see is not cutting it. i read somewhere that you should let the time something will take discourage you, because the time will pass no matter what. so just start eating better. as well as posting your runs maybe you should start an online journal of what you eat. when forced to look back daily or weekly at what you eat it has to have an impact on the autopilot that just says go.

I need you to continue writing but if and when you feel stuck ,do not be shy about turning to classic pen and paper.

always w/ you,

Jose Callejas

 

 

I cut the chord for a year #Reverb13 Day 30

Relationships: Did you find a new best friend?  Delve deeper into an existing relationship?  Break up?  Get back together?

So this prompt made me think I missed something this year. Also makes me think that the year was so great because I kept everything pretty small with in my immediate family. I let my wife fill every role friends might have in the past. I guess you could say our bond grew stronger.

So I’ll focus on other relationships. I broke up with the “cable/satellite” company. This entire year I relied on the internet programming for all my TV entertainment. That really cleared up a lot of time for other stuff that filled up my year. I guess that’s how I managed to run 1200+ miles.

Sadly I made it through a year and now I’m thinking about getting back together. Hopefully before awards season. If not by then before football season. I’m convince my team lost just because I wasn’t watching all the games. That’s how it works right?

One more post and this Reverb13 is over. Kind of sad.

Well would you look at that… #Reverb13 Day 29

List posts are everywhere.  Top 10 Ways to be Happier Today.  Three Tips for More Energy.  Seven Ideas to Stay Focused.  Give us a list.

I’m not happy about this prompt. I’ve mentioned how annoying list are elsewhere on the internet. That said I appreciate The Reverb Project and so here’s my list for today. I take a lot of pictures so here are my top 12 favorite pictures I took in 2014. Yes one for every month.

January: New Year’s Race/Biltmore Hotel

It was like traveling back to a different time to an old school Los Angeles

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February: Library time with K

Topanga Library after school because daddy is a bookworm. I don’t care what he reads so long as he continues to read.

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March: Relaxing at Balboa Park/Lake in Encino

He is so active that I really appreciate when he slows down and it’s usually when I show him how beautiful the world truly is.

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April: Dodger Stadium w/ Grandpa

Grandpa was turning 55 and each child had given him one grandkid

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May: Motherhood Maternity after baseball

After a win for the WhiteSox we headed to the mall because Mommy finally gave in to needing some maternity clothes. I really needed to capture how grown my son really is.

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June: Yum Yum Donut.

We took a trip to the donut shop for a celebratory donut on National Donut day. It’s always a no so he hadn’t been there in a while.

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July: Santa Monica Pier

As a Tom Hanks fan he was certain he’d be BIG by morning.

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August: Home

The last night before our beautiful daughter was born. She was born just hours later.

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September: Home w/ the kids

My son loves his sister so much and it melts my heart to watch him with her.

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October: Pizza Rev

After a Chicago win the boy and I went to Pizza Rev for pizza. Time alone with the boy is always nice.

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November: Drive Thru

I got a lot of dirty looks because of my carpool buddy. This was the first of many on a very promising set of post around the house and elsewhere with Vader. My daughter loves this thing.

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December: Santa Clause Lane

Last year K(1) was against a Santa picture. With the addition of K(2) he’s had a change of heart and we were on our way.

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Thanks for stopping by, I apologize for the list. I really try and keep those to a minimum. Also, although I’d love to buy a better camera, I do believe the old adage that the best camera is the one you have with you.

Happy Birthday Marines #Reverb13 Day 28.

What moment in 2013 brought tears to your eyes?  Are you usually a crier?  Or did tearing up take you by surprise?

I’m definitely not a crier. In fact I’m usually trying to stop my wife from crying or just letting emotions overshadow what her message may be. Whether at work or even during arguments with me. I’m usually calm and collected except for one or two hot button issues.

That though went out the window on a morning in late October. I’m not really sure exactly what date. It was during the Marine Corps Birthday Message from the Commandant. I’m sure it was the images accompanying his voice over. Marines in garrison as well as those training for and in combat operations. I honestly can’t even really explained the feelings that came over me.

I do know that the tears were flowing from somewhere deep, deep inside. My Family was with in arms reach and my son quietly consoled me. I’m sure he’s probably only been witness to me anywhere near that distraught before, when my grandmother passed away. A little more than a year before hand. As I felt his hand on my arm and looked up I saw my wife holding my daughter and I was jerked back into reality and as much as I needed to see them I needed to be alone.

After what seemed like an eternity alone in the bedroom I didn’t even know how to return to my waiting family. I just walked out and after hugging me we went back to watching some other television and that was the last time that was brought up. I know now that it was probably the first time my son really got the idea about how I feel about my time in the Marine Corps. The truth is that it’s a whole lot of different ways and it will always be an important part of my life. As much as I’ve tried to move on from those years and all the things we saw and did it will always be somewhere deep inside.

I barely got up, somebody had a good laugh #Reverb13 Day 27

What was the funniest thing that happened this year?  Was it funny when it happened?  Or was it one of those things you laughed about later?

I fell. If you ask the wife, I fall a lot. I don’t think it’s that much but I sure fell this year. It was a short 4 mile run. So a very short maintenance run just to keep the blood flowing between long runs. I had it perfectly mapped. 1 1/2 mile by 1/2. I was just shy of 2 miles when I tripped on a an uneven part of the sidewalk. I was moving at quite a nice clip so bam you guessed it. I flew almost completely parallel to the ground before landing very hard on my water bottle. It knocked the wind out of me and it took what felt like an eternity to catch my breath.

It was long enough for me to really question how stupid it would be if I just killed myself during a run I believe will extend my life. Some dirty sidewalk in Van Nuys, CA and I didn’t even have my wallet with me. Can you imagine how long it would take for my family to find out and further more how sad to have survived a war only to die so close to home. All alone which is one of my biggest fears.

I finally caught my breath and rolled on to my back and stared at the sky before assessing the damage. I sat up and looked around for my phone i managed to throw over to the patch of grass closest to me. I dialed for G to pick me up because I couldn’t imagine continuing my run. Of course my luck: no answer. I hobbled around for a bit before hobbling the 2nd 2 home. My hip was killing me and I did run with a bit of pain for days after that.

It was hilarious as soon as I couldn’t feel anymore pain. G has teased me with the incident for months now. I really laugh at how terrified I was at the whole thing. Here’s to fall free running in 2014.

I remember this one time…. #Reverb13 Day 26.

Tell us about five moments you don’t want to forget from 2013.

Everything leading up to the birth of our beautiful baby girl. Everything about it. I remember finding out she would be a little girl. I want to remember seeing my wife glow with happiness for days to come. From the days leading up to her birth that were a bit frightening. Every detail of the actual day. She woke us up and our trek across town as a family. The overwhelming amount of emotions I thought I would keep at bay when first laying eyes on her. Then even more so when finally getting both my children in the same room.

A summer at home with my family of 3. We had a nice run the 3 of us. No matter where life leads us in 2014 it will never be the same. I do believe it’s for the better but still it was just the 3 of us for almost 8 years. It was a special bond that I’m not sure words could truly describe.

The joy of not one but two Marathon finish lines. Really staying committed with my running has brought me so much. I’ve been running for a few years but always as part of a group and although I love company on a long run. I love the solitude of running alone. The bulk of my runs were done solo and so the joy of crossing that line is mine. With that said every finish line I cross is a little sweeter when my family is there to celebrate the struggle with me.

Feeling very excited and nervous bordering on terrified on the first day of a new job. Earlier in the year I left a full time job. Pay wasn’t anything life changing but it was consistent. So leaving was terrifying but the only option for my sanity. It wasn’t normal work stress. I mean as a Marine I experience stress that will be hard to match at a civilian work place. This was about personal respect and dignity. Fast forward to the end of the year. I’m employed before the year ended and it should be a great 2014 but I need to always remember what I felt like on that first day and what it meant to me to get back in the work force.

What I believe to be the last Christmas my son will still really believe in Santa Claus. 2o12 I didn’t even get him on Santa’s lap. This year he hopped in because we asked him to so his sister wouldn’t be scared. He’s asking all the right questions and also his list is getting to the point where of course I should get more credit than the fat guy. It doesn’t help that he’s one of two 8 year olds in 4th grade. He’s in class with some 10 year olds that are truly past it. I’ll try and keep Santa alive in 2014 but just in case I want to remember his face lighting up because Santa came through on a couple of gifts I told him I didn’t think he needed.

 

 

 

Flex your happiness #Reverb13 Day 25

Covet: What did you covet this year?  Are you working towards getting that, or just admiring it from afar?  Is it a tangible thing, or just an idea?  Tell us about what you’ve got your sights set on.

I can say with pride that I didn’t want for much this year. I wanted my son to be healthy and for my baby to be born healthy. You get the theme.

Previous years I want the newest computer or iPad. I also keep trying to figure what kind of car I’ll be driving when I finally make it back on the road. I waited this long, might as well wait until I get the perfect car, I would say. . Something with “muscle” and at the very least some character.

I’ve done all that wondering or hoping from afar. I think my own decision, since it was after all a choice, is dependent on my employment “situation”. This was not what happened this year though. I really learned to pair down and I couldn’t be happier for that.